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I just this moment got a notification from WordPress that I started this blog 7 years ago today. Where does the time go?
It hasn’t always gone to blogging, that I can tell you. But I have been somewhat consistent over all these years in spouting off about this or that. Lately, as you might be able to tell, I’ve had the itch to put a lot more out there for your reading enjoyment and possible enlightenment (or, if I’ve messed up somewhere, endarkenment). I hope this little writing itch will continue, mainly because as I’ve preached to my students for decades, writing is not simply taking dictation from your head. We write to find out what we think, and I for one am certainly interested in finding out what I think. I hope that there might be something in that for you, too, but there are no guarantees.
If you have looked in from time to time, thanks! I hope all is well with you and continues to be so!
I am sick! How sick? I am trying to *give away* (!) my tickets for this show, that’s how sick. And it has been raining all day. Pouring! And the weather report calls for thunderstorms this evening. You know, the kind with lightning. To put it mildly, I am not up for going to an outdoor concert. Not even by the greatest live act ever, the E Street Band.
Last night, as I was lying in bed sneezing and gagging, I somehow fell upon a website that was incredibly (and no doubt surreptitiously) streaming the Sunday concert live as it was happening. I tuned in just in time to hear all the encores. It sounded great, closing in on 4 hours. I wanted to be there!
And yet I also wanted to die…or at least stop sneezing and practically drowning in phlegm. My live-in nurse was a bit worried about me, suggesting maybe I should be taking it easy. Maybe I should….
And I was reading the twitter stream: “Missing all the old white people from your neighborhood? They’re all here at CBP.” “Never saw so much mom-dancing in my life.” Ummm…were we becoming a bit cliche, we aging, middle class, suburbanite rockers? Maybe we were….
The last time I saw the E Street Band was on our 50th birthday – mine and my nurse’s – in 2009 at the Spectrum. They played the entire Born to Run album in order. Clarence was there, having been hoisted onto the stage with a lift, the poor man. But he could still make that sax sing so strong, so sweetly! Just after this show, they blew up the Spectrum. I figured that would be a good one to go out on…me, and the E Street Band, and the dear old Spectrum, the end of an era. Full circle. Go out on a high note. Don’t push your luck. That sort of thing.
Well, that’s my state of mind on this dreary, wheezing day. I decide not to go. I am trying to give away my tickets.
But for some completely stupefying reason I am UNABLE TO GIVE AWAY…FOR FREE!… my tickets to the show, to the mutha-frackin’ E Street Band show(!). FOR FREE!! Seriously, WTF is WRONG with us???
Dumbfounded, bitter, hacking up a lung, I decide to just go. I don my rain jacket, stuff the pockets with kleenex and cough drops, and head to Philly with my personal nurse at my side.
As we get closer to the Park, the rain lets up. There is no traffic. By some miracle (or perhaps because they cost 25 bucks!) there are plenty of strategically located parking spots positioned for a hasty exit if weather or ailment necessitates. We make our way to our seats, next to our daughter and her boyfriend.
I should say something about the boyfriend. By some cosmic improbability (or perhaps because he’s…well, I will not speculate…) the BF has managed to live almost *4 decades* without seeing the E Street Band live! What!?! I *first saw them* almost 4 decades ago. But okay, he is here now, and that’s what counts. All is forgotten. All is forgiven.
Before the show, the big screens are soberly warning of the chance of lightning and how if it strikes we should all nicely walk off the field of play as directed by the ushers. Yeah, right. I’m thinking: This is a crowd of, oh, 50,000 people, and I’d bet 49,500 of them are Costanza’s (you know what I mean and you know who you are). But okay, it’s not currently lightninginginging (sp?) and (sneeze, sniffle, snort) it’s not even raining, so I’ll just pretend I never saw that big, black, imposing warning sign. And I’ll just BE HERE NOW.
It is not working. Truth of it is, I am not completely present. In fact, I am wallowing in a huge dollop of past, recent past and deep past, my past, our past, mine and the E Street Band’s, mine and yours, maybe. Because I realize that some of you out there in that sea of Costanza’s are my past, and so are, still, my life. And there are more not here tonight who are brought to mind in anticipation of the music that will soon envelope me.
A song is playing in my head: “I came for you, for you, I came for you…” Who, you? Who did I come for, when I wanted mainly to be home in bed? I scan the crowd, looking for you, the you I came for.
I start to my left, with my nurse. “These are better days with a girl like you,” I sing to myself. I came for you, I think. I came only because I came with you. She is the reason I have absolutely no nostalgia, even as the timeline of my life appears stretched before me on this hot and muggy September night, radiating out from her, drawing me into a past with her, a past beyond and before her.
I look a little further down our row, to our beautiful daughter, to her until-tonight-radically-deprived BF, and I think how happy I am to be with them. I came for you two, just because I knew you’d be here and I wanted to be with you, no matter what.
Then I turn my gaze out into the crowd, up in the stands, down on the field. I try to see the faces, all the faces, young and old. I am happy to be with all of you tonight, I think (without sniffling, I notice). You young’uns, it’ll turn out, know the words to all these old songs better than I do. You oldies are goodies, still, and the joy you exude floods this place, lights up this night (which is not raining, not a drop), lights up my countenance…maybe even unclogs my nasal passages. I came for you.
I squint, try to look *hard* into that sea of expectation as the moments tick by before the start of THE SHOW. I am looking for you, my old friends. I know you are here tonight, even though I will not catch so much as a glimpse of you. The thing is, you would have been here even if you had, god forbid, gotten the flu, wanted to avoid the rain, and gave away your tickets. As another poet wrote (pluralized by me):
i carry your heart with me(i carry it in
my heart)i am never without it(anywhere
i go you go,my dears;and whatever is done
by only me is your doing,my darlings)
i carry your heart(i carry it in my heart)
Yes, I am carrying your hearts, my old friends, in my heart. Those of you who were there and those of you who weren’t, so many of you from my youth. I always have carried your hearts with me, even though you are long gone from me and these are better days, it’s true. Without what we were I am not, such as I am. I came for you. This band wrote a lot of the soundtrack to my life, and you had starring roles in it, and being here gives me the chance once again to be grateful.
The lights suddenly go dark, about 8:20. And Bruce Springsteen takes the stage, just him and his guitar to sing about the working life…about a life that works, which will turn out to be the theme of the night.
This is the first I’ve uttered the Boss’s name, and this is by design. We saw Bruce Springsteen during his solo Devils and Dust tour, and although I like the songs on that album well enough, that experience was perhaps the saddest of my concert going days. The songs were sad and the man singing them looked lonely. And I felt sad and lonely. I had come for the uplift you get from a Springsteen show, but something was missing.
Now I know what it is. It is the E Street Band, as they hit the stage to blaze through a fistful of songs from that working life album, Darkness on the Edge of Town…perfect for Labor Day in hard times, which come and go and come and go just to come around again. Bruce Springsteen is just another lonely guy, I guess, without the E Street Band, his family, his friends, his cohorts, his partners in rhyme. “Bruce Springsteen,” the object of all our affections is what he is only because the E Street Band are who they are. And they are who and what they are because he is who he is. And if the E Street Band were a football team, all the rest of us would be the 12th man, the fans who round out the team. (Imagine how silly it would look to see a football game played in an empty stadium.) It is all one organic whole, one living breathing body with a whole lot of soul. When we’re not all together, then what are we?
Something was missing, so I came for you.
Bruce talked about ghosts. You get to be certain age, you start thinking about ghosts…mainly because their numbers start to mount up and because pretty soon…not too soon, I hope…you figure you’ll be joining their ranks. Ghosts: things that used to be but that no longer are and yet still live on. “We are alive,” they sing in your ear, sometimes in just a whisper.
I looked out even further than the crowd, further than the walls of the arena, over to the Philly skyline, and beyond. There were ghosts. Maybe it all just is a ghost, I think. My country…what has become of it? Is how we are now, and how we are to each other, is this all there is now? Where is the spirit I knew in my youth? Where is the compassion? Where is the virtue? It all looks so dead sometimes, and yet I hear that still, small voice tonight: “We are alive! We have a troubadour. If your troubadour is here and you’re here then we’re here.”
Hope. Optimism. Courage. Passion. Exuberance. LOVE. I came for you.
It was a typical — which means extraordinary — E Street Band show. I loved having my wife holding my arm, holding me up, dancing and singing with me. I loved so much watching the BF enjoying the Boss experience for the first time. I loved seeing our dear daughter having such a great time. I loved the raucous crowd from the geezers to the little ones. I loved knowing you were out there somewhere, hearts of my heart. I loved the night, the songs, the show. It was brilliant, of course.
And I laughed: At the end, Bruce took off his boots and poured about a quart of sweat out of each one.
And I cried: In the middle of the classic song, “Dead Devil in the Freezer,” they had…(what?…really?… ’cause I always thought…no?). Well, heh heh, apparently that song is called, “Tenth Avenue Freeze Out.” Anywho, in the middle of that song there’s the famous line (I’m sure I have this one right): “When the change was made uptown and the Big Man joined the band…” The song broke and big screens paid tribute to Clarence for what seemed like several minutes, during which time the crowd cheered nonstop about as loud as I’ve ever hear a concert crowd scream. It was touching, and I admit I teared up. A ghost, but really alive in all of us who loved having his sound in our souls.
So, I came to the show.
I came for Bruce’s indomitable and ageless spirit in the night.
I came for the heart-stopping, pants-dropping, house-rocking, earth-quaking, booty-shaking, Viagra-taking, love-making – Le-gen-dary E – Street – Band!
I came for the healing, for a rock ‘n’ roll exorcism, for at least a modicum of hope.
I came for you, for you, for all of you, just to be with you, to find myself once more with you.
p.s. I woke up the next morning with no sign of illness. Just sayin’.
Our Primary Cat, Bagheera (“Bags”), and our Auxiliary Backup Cat, KitKat:
The question is: Does this blog have anything to do with philosophy anymore? Truth be told, it appears to be for the birds!
Well, I philosophize more than I bird (I realize how awkward that sentence is). I teach a lot of classes (have to make ends meet, you know), which requires a lot of reading, thinking, and talking philosophy. In my “spare time,” I have been working on a few things, off-line, as it were, all having to do with philosophy one way or another. And it is, after all, baseball season and playoff time (hockey, basketball). So, I don’t find as much time to philosophy-blog as much as I used to (little as that was…).
I expect I’ll get back to it one of these days (perhaps). But for the moment I have this stack of final exams to grade and some summer courses to prepare.
Ludwig was baptized 239 years ago today.
Eat some vegetables! And be thankful for it all!
Let’s see…what’s out there?
1. Nonsense sharpens the mind! (Readers of this blog are in luck!)
2. Testosterone makes men stingy! (That explains it!)
3. David Brooks: Social and affective neuroscience “will replace misleading categories like ‘emotion’ and ‘reason.’ I suspect that the work will take us beyond the obsession with I.Q. and other conscious capacities and give us a firmer understanding of motivation, equilibrium, sensitivity and other unconscious capacities.” (I don’t know what I feel or think about this….)
4. Yottabytes!?! (That’s how much information Big Brother has on you and me.)
5. Heil Heidegger! — Carlin Romano on Heidegger:
How many scholarly stakes in the heart will we need before Martin Heidegger (1889-1976), still regarded by some as Germany’s greatest 20th-century philosopher, reaches his final resting place as a prolific, provincial Nazi hack? Overrated in his prime, bizarrely venerated by acolytes even now, the pretentious old Black Forest babbler makes one wonder whether there’s a university-press equivalent of wolfsbane, guaranteed to keep philosophical frauds at a distance.
(Don’t hold back, Carlin. What do you really think of Heidegger??? Make sure to read the nearly universal negative comments to Carlin’s screed.)
1. How to Photoshop your eyeball.
3. How to have morality without religion.
4. How to get an education for free.
5. How to think about Fiji Water.
He who fights with monsters should be careful lest he thereby become a monster. And if thou gaze long into an abyss, the abyss will also gaze into thee.
Well, another summer come and (almost) gone.Â What did I do on my summer vacation?Â I climbed a mountain.Â I swam in the sea.Â I wandered the desert.Â I gazed into an abyss.
No, I don’t just mean the Grand Canyon.Â I mean the abyss of Facebook and Twitter.Â And this abyss has been gazing into me.Â It gazed into me as I climbed mountains, tangled with wild animals, watched sunrises and sunsets, sweated by the Saguaros, dodged lightning, feted my children’s successes, did my job, aired my grievances, expressed my hopes, cracked a few jokes.Â I know I left out a bunch, but since I know the full context of all my postings it feels like nothing got left out at all.Â Yes, it is true that I often don’t have the faintest idea what my “friends” are talking about in their posts…most are just in-jokes of various degrees of levity or angst.Â I don’t have the context.Â You had to be there, I guess.Â But by posting my own inscrutabilites, I have this sense I’ve sent it all out there into the e-byss of virtual relationships (perhaps an oxymoron, that).Â Now why would I have done that?Â Why would anyone?
Facebook turned “friend” into a verb (“friending”).Â By their count, I have friended or been friended by a mere 53 “friends”–the page with the list more modestly calls these “connections,” now.Â Â My FB friends include:
- 1 wife/soul-mate/love-of-my-life/BFF
- 0 ex-wives (imagine that!)
- 2 blood relatives (my parents)
- 2 step-kids
- 15 step-relatives
- 2 ex-girlfriends, who, though well rid of me both then and now, really seemed to have meant that old “we’re just good friends” line…at least virtually
- 2 women (but they were girls back then…) who I would have liked now to be calling ex-girlfriends (I mean that in a good way…) but who would probably have known this back then, thus explaining why they kept a wide berth at the time; i.e., to avoid being referred to decades later as an ex-girlfriend of mine
- 1 woman (but she was a girl back then) who would have had NO IDEA that I’d have liked to have included her in the preceding category–she kept an even wider berth
- 1 ex-girlfriend–I guess that’s the right designation–of my stepson (for some reason)
- 11 professional colleagues, some close, some more distant…one of whom apparently counts for TWO of my friends (c’mon, H-H…pick one profile and stick with it!Â I’ll be accused of padding my numbers…)
- 1 son of a colleague (that is not an epithet, btw)
- 3 pretty good pals from my youth (whom I more or less hadn’t seen or heard from since youth)
- 11 various and sundry acquaintances from high school days and just after
Of the “friends” I know (I admit I don’t really know all of them–even most of them, truth be told), there isn’t one I don’t at least think I like.Â I’m glad to be “friended” to all of them (if that’s how you say it).
Having so few friends/connections makes me “unpopular.”Â I confess this does not bother me in the least.Â At one time, perhaps it would have, but this is not that time.
I have twittered this summer, too.Â I have two “followers.”Â I like the sound of that: FOLLOWERS.Â Anybody can have friends, but to have FOLLOWERS!Â But I digress.Â My followers consist of one of my FB friends (to protect reputations and fallout from my fading yet opportunistic memory, I decline to say from which category), andÂ my brother, who is not my friend, FB-wise.Â I noticed, too, that I picked up a couple of faux-“followers” who glommed on when I tweeted about someplace I visited in Arizona (hotels and tourist services).Â I found that a little creepy, really.Â I like to know my followers.
On Facebook, I was often invited to take challenges, answer poll questions, pass virtual drinks around, test my knowledge of music or films, check my compatibility with other people’s tastes in music or films, and on and on.Â I declined.Â Nothing personal.Â No, really, it’s nothing personal.Â I like personal, and those little Hallmark-y type mechanisms for interacting are not needed among actual friends, so I refuse to make use of them with my virtual friends (if there are such things).
I uploaded a few pictures.Â I looked at pictures from my friends.Â I like looking at pictures, even if I don’t know who or what I am looking at.Â I just enjoy a good picture.Â There rarely are any good pictures, though.Â Just pictures, snapshots, some a little embarrassing to tell the truth, but mostly just photos of people doing people stuff or places that looked like they needed to be photographed at the time one of my friends was standing there.Â But good or bad, I do look at the pictures.Â Â Beats reading, really.
I was just thinking that if I got all of my FB friends in one room for a party, it would be a weird party.Â I like weird parties as a rule, so maybe it would be good.Â But it would definitely be weird.Â It reminds us that you can have lots of different friends, have friends of widely varying personalities, but that you wouldn’t necessarily want to have them all over on the same night.Â You can like lobster.Â You can like peanut butter and jelly.Â But you won’t like lobster and peanut butter and jelly, if you catch my meaning.
Some of the postings from my friends were thought provoking…not just the Whiskey-Tango-Foxtrot kind of provocation (“Wha???”), but the kind that actually provoke thought.Â Not often, but now and then.Â Sometimes the postings were downright hilarious.Â Yes…I was LAUGHING OUT LOUD!Â But again, not very often.Â Some people wrote nice things.Â Some people wrote ambiguously nice things, so I chose to take them in the nicest possible sense.Â Nobody said anything too mean or negative.Â Only the occasionally e-burst of boredom or quotidian frustration.Â These things pass.Â Nothing of it will mean anything in a few hours, let alone months or years.Â FB postings are as ephemeral as water cooler conversations.Â Or text messages.Â Or tweets.Â Or sneezes.Â I was once directly asked a serious question–off line, in the email functionality of FB.Â The question required effort–I had to watch a video and give my opinion.Â I did that.Â I didn’t hear anything more about it.Â That’s the way it goes.Â Even if you have a good question or thought, by the time anyone gets around to commenting, the moment of your own initial interest is probably gone.Â As it probably should be.Â FB is just something to pass the time.
I am probably violating some code of FB conduct by talking about FB, rather than just talking on FB.Â Who wants to be asked why they’re doing what they’re doing?Â Who even wants to know why, themselves?
Anyway, the fall semester is at hand.Â Back to learning/teaching philosophy (as if that’s not what I’ve been doing all along…).
So the question is this:Â Do I continue with Facebook, Twitter, and other social networking activities?Â I’ll leave it up to you.Â Just leave a comment and a vote.
Oh…wait…I forgot.Â I’m BLOGGING.Â Probably to myself.